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[Aug. 11th, 2006|10:26 pm] |
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So, if you didn't know yet...I'm sooo over Ben. And he can read this, I don't care (not that he ever comes on anyway). Last week, I found out who he really is. And the person I saw is everything I hate about people. I don't hate him...but I totally do not like him.
I'm sooo much happier than I have ever been. Happier than I was when I was with Ben. The happiness now isn't fake...and it's not like I'm trying to be happy. It's real. And I love it.
Also, I'm confident in myself. I'm such an optimist & I know I can do whatever I set my mind to. And I love the way I look! I guess when I was with Ben I tried to not act as confident...because I didn't want to come off as conceided. Because I'm not like that at all.
At first, I was devastated he broke up with me. Now, I'm glad he did it. Because if he didn't, I'd still be tied down & trapped. That's how I felt with him. Trapped. Like I couldn't do what I wanted or act as crazy and funny as I really am. And I felt like I couldn't show how smart I really am...because I didn't want to seem smarter than him. But now, I can do whatever I want. I can call Johnny Depp hottt...call myself pretty...and be the funny person I am.
Best of all, I don't have to worry about somebody constantly bringing me down. I don't have to be blamed for something when I did nothing wrong.
I can be myself...and I can be happy. And that's what I've always wanted. |
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